yesterday i went for long and wonderful journey to Coco Rosie land.i felt like my heart was being filled with soft feathers of gold and birds were singing for morning song.i wish i could lay there on the floor with my eyes closed.i woldnt have been able to see but feel better?yes.
i closed my eyes few times and i felt pure joy in my heart
it was magic
it was spiritual
it was...
i was happy
and i was thinking of him
and felt him growing bigger in my heart
and even if i m not sure
if i ever see him again
i want to be a better woman for this man
love from first sight how silly is that
but i want to treat it as a gift no matter how complicated and difficult it is
and i want to water this plant
water with hope
and smile
he was best bday gift i could ever imagine
and im more than grateful
i even wanted to go to church and pray
but im not sure if it would be fair
if it would be right
to pray for this
i feel silly asking God
who im not sure if i believe in
for love
is it ethical?
its all so chaotic
today ive been sleeping all day
and i ve been thinking why
i didnt work that much to be that tire
and ive just realized it must be my body missing him
breathing in his crumbles from my bed
i cant find any logic in it
but cant help
cant be bothered
bc it just feel right
loving him after spending only 10 hrs with him feel so damn right
and im going to cherish it
and be a better woman
he must be a good man
i dare to hope
i dare to believe
i dare to trust